I feel like I am going to explode!!!

My whole body is vibrating, my stomach is churning, I never thought that leading up to going to say goodbye to my mother would feel like this. The fact I live in another country and the travel I must do to get to her is making me shake all over. 1. Bus for 6 hours then the 4 hour wait for my flight, then the 11 hour flight. Just thinking about it and all these hours of emotion building up inside is making me nauseous.

Calm …… Calm down this Monkey Brain of mine PLEASE.

Our nuclear family is small, mother, sister, daughter & nice. That is it and I am the “Strong One” the one with the heart of stone. But this is not true because I feel like a puddle right now and I need a hug or to feel strength from someone else right now. Will I make it? So that I can be strong for these 4 women in my family?

I am so thankful for this Blog that I can write it out my feeling, it does help.

Issa 2023