Being reborn requires solitude
It’s not the time to be around others
All I want is myself now
Don’t know how long this will last
MonkeyBrain is changing all the time
Stomach is churning
Skin is tingling
Bursts of energy
Feeling drained
Energy again
Hiding in plain sight
Aura colors keep changing
Seeing things in opposite is confusing
I am working through the maze of my
Mind & Body
There is
GREAT excitement & Great anxiety
Not knowing what will happen is
Deafening
-Issa
When in difficult situations
4 some odd reason my whole body prepares for
WAR
My ears plug up
Skin begins to tingle
Heart slows down
I begin to see in wide angle
And every nerve in my body is
HEIGHTENED
I also noticed that my empathy level
Goes down to survival mode
SINGLAR
then I
ATTACK.
Issa spring 2023
I feel like I am going to explode!!!
My whole body is vibrating, my stomach is churning, I never thought that leading up to going to say goodbye to my mother would feel like this. The fact I live in another country and the travel I must do to get to her is making me shake all over. 1. Bus for 6 hours then the 4 hour wait for my flight, then the 11 hour flight. Just thinking about it and all these hours of emotion building up inside is making me nauseous.
Calm …… Calm down this Monkey Brain of mine PLEASE.
Our nuclear family is small, mother, sister, daughter & nice. That is it and I am the “Strong One” the one with the heart of stone. But this is not true because I feel like a puddle right now and I need a hug or to feel strength from someone else right now. Will I make it? So that I can be strong for these 4 women in my family?
I am so thankful for this Blog that I can write it out my feeling, it does help.
Issa 2023
I am so in love with You
I think of You all the time
You make me feel, so loved and blessed
You are with me all the time
I know You will never leave me because
You have been there during the best times of my life
and have helped me through my darkest times.
When I am lost, You find me and guide me
When I am sad, You show me how to smile again
When I am angry You bring calm back within me
You have impregnated me with so much
LOVE & JOY
for LIFE
I am so thankful I have YOU in my life because
As long as YOU are with me,
I am never alone.
I feel You, see You
&
LOVE YOU
My Guardian Angels
Issa
Some of us are extremely passionate about everything and are loud about it. Some of us seem to have no passion about anything because we are so quite. Some of us have passion that comes and goes, because we are so easily distracted.
We are all passionate but the world has different names for us, extroverts, introverts or fickle.
*Some quick information: Today in our world, year 2020 we were hit with COVID. Many do not know that COVID hits us in a secret place in our bodies that no one talks about. It depletes us of our beautiful happy hormone( Serotonin) keeps it at bay for many months after. Science has found that without treatment many of us humans. Find ourselves in a depressed state, with the blahs or just a lack of passion in our lives for anything.
So, how passionate are you today? In hospitals here in Italy, they give serotonin pills to nurses and doctors. This is for those who have had COVID to snap out of the blahs. Therapists and psychologists are prescribing it left and right. It is a 5-day treatment, I have been told.
Go for a walk in nature. Start watching silly comedies and laugh. Eat your protein and dark leafy veggies. Or just hang out with your favorite person. These are a few of my suggestions.
If you feel stressed or are lacking passion take responsibility for your body, mind & soul. Give yourself a little fun to jump start your happy hormone again and have a wonderful life.
Issa Brain Monkey Brain 