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One war, one argument and 3 days later the anger still lingers, not a good sign.

I am an unapologetic woman, my wisdom, my experiences, my scars, my life I have earned. I was warned over a decade ago. That certain humans would never be capable of, stand by my side as an equal. Because I was too advanced and have experienced too much already in my life.

Too be honest I thought it was a snobbish statement. 

I completely understand now after a decade. My anger at the moment is so deep and strong, hopefully writing this will calm me.

This weekend I found myself in a situation, of a one on one confrontation. My argument was strong and valid. But the soul I chose to spend my life with, went to the other side against me. What the _ _ _ _!!!! 

An onlooker, a bystander, a stranger came out from nowhere, to stand by my side and shut the situation down with 4 words. 

“She is correct, look.”

My feelings are so different now, I feel like I have been cut and now a crust is forming that will leave a nasty scar. I am afraid I won’t manage to get past this. This is due to the reason I was given for going against me in public. 

“Even though you were correct, I care what others think and I was embarrassed by your actions” 

These words are now seared on my Monkey Brain now.

One war, one argument and 3 days later the anger still lingers, not a good sign.

Jan 2023

Jan 2023 Peace

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WOW, it is 2023 and my Monkey Brain has been on overload with thoughts and ideas. I am loving this New Year so much already, how many of you can agree with me? My yearly ritual of “Out with the Old and In with the New” has been fantastic! Normally I need to work hard at getting rid of the Old. I remove contacts in my phone that I don’t need. I also clear out clothing I don’t wear. My house gets a thorough cleaning. I part ways with people I don’t need to have in my life anymore. But this year it seems that my Higher Powers that be, did it all for me.

For this I am Thankful & Grateful. I am so filled with Gratitude and we are still in January. I am Thankful that everyone I know and love are in good health. I see so many people every day. They have a positivism all around them like an aura. Though they might not, even feel it.

I am thankful for this new peacefulness I feel within myself. I need to share it with as many people as I can.

What Peace can I give to you?