Detonate

I feel like I am going to explode!!!

My whole body is vibrating, my stomach is churning, I never thought that leading up to going to say goodbye to my mother would feel like this. The fact I live in another country and the travel I must do to get to her is making me shake all over. 1. Bus for 6 hours then the 4 hour wait for my flight, then the 11 hour flight. Just thinking about it and all these hours of emotion building up inside is making me nauseous.

Calm …… Calm down this Monkey Brain of mine PLEASE.

Our nuclear family is small, mother, sister, daughter & nice. That is it and I am the “Strong One” the one with the heart of stone. But this is not true because I feel like a puddle right now and I need a hug or to feel strength from someone else right now. Will I make it? So that I can be strong for these 4 women in my family?

I am so thankful for this Blog that I can write it out my feeling, it does help.

Issa 2023

YOU 1

I am so in love with You

I think of You all the time

You make me feel, so loved and blessed

You are with me all the time

I know You will never leave me because

You have been there during the best times of my life

and have helped me through my darkest times.

When I am lost, You find me and guide me 

When I am sad, You show me how to smile again

When I am angry You bring calm back within me

You have impregnated me with so much 

LOVE & JOY 

for LIFE

I am so thankful I have YOU in my life because

As long as YOU are with me,

I am never alone.

I feel You, see You

&

LOVE YOU

My Guardian Angels

Issa

How passionate are U?

Some of us are extremely passionate about everything and are loud about it. Some of us seem to have no passion about anything because we are so quite. Some of us have passion that comes and goes, because we are so easily distracted. 

We are all passionate but the world has different names for us, extroverts, introverts or fickle.

*Some quick information: Today in our world, year 2020 we were hit with COVID. Many do not know that COVID hits us in a secret place in our bodies that no one talks about. It depletes us of our beautiful happy hormone( Serotonin) keeps it at bay for many months after. Science has found that without treatment many of us humans. Find ourselves in a depressed state, with the blahs or just a lack of passion in our lives for anything.

So, how passionate are you today? In hospitals here in Italy, they give serotonin pills to nurses and doctors. This is for those who have had COVID to snap out of the blahs. Therapists and psychologists are prescribing it left and right. It is a 5-day treatment, I have been told.

Go for a walk in nature. Start watching silly comedies and laugh. Eat your protein and dark leafy veggies. Or just hang out with your favorite person. These are a few of my suggestions.

If you feel stressed or are lacking passion take responsibility for your body, mind & soul. Give yourself a little fun to jump start your happy hormone again and have a wonderful life.

What! it’s November!

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So many plans so little time

I feel like the White Rabbit

running and racing

running and racing

time is my only competition.

I actually had a 50th

birthday this year and it passed

with out celebration

-WOW-

New Life New Leaf

I have stepped 

through the looking-glass without

hesitation.

Drop it & Stop it

and

Begin again.

Life is coming at me so fast

like waves crashing against

the rocks with a fierce

Passion.

*SHOCKED*

That I am able to

keep up with it all.

New life New age

New business

New language

New rules

New New New New

NEW!

……………………….

shhhhhh I love the unexpected.

written by Issa 2018

Why do we break ourselves?

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It’s so CRAZY

we break ourselves

all the time

then have the nerve

to put the blame on others.

I have learned

with my many years

on this Planet

that is

if am not well

and feeling

BROKEN

I must look inward and

“Start to Fixing”

Because as we all know

so well

no one can fix

our broken pieces but

Ourselves.

Broken