The Call for a Blessing

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 I have travelled far from the safety of my nest that I call home.

In this land that I have come to, I feel so much PAIN. 

I want to

remove the meaningless and make the meaningful 

 This is the second morning in a row that I have woken up at the hour of the Veil, 4am is the hour that I call the Veil because it’s the time, I feel the two worlds can communicate. I have such a deep need to talk to the spiritual world.

I ask that this pain that is here is,

lightened and somehow taken away so that my these people I love can live and grow.

There is so much love, I see it between them.

But there is a terrible Pain & Anger that they feel, within. Not for anything that they have done to each other, it’s just rooted and grown on its own from a terrible tragedy.

The Pain & Anger is deep within them and it is choking them like a terrible vine

that is starting to shut out the light.

I WANT TO HELP THEM WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, THAT I, MYSELF  AM IN PAIN.  

I now think to myself about Heaven & Hell a thought came to mind.

That perhaps Heaven is happiness and peace of mind & spirit.

Hell is anger & pain that can consume us.

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At this hour of the Veil, I have asked with eyes full of tears that this Hell is lifted for these two beautiful beings and that a light can be shown to guide them to happiness and peace of mind. Please, Please Protect them and let the Love shine over them with Warmth, Light, Love and Peace. These two beings so deserve this because they are so beautiful.

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written by Issa

Meaningless

Delusion…. belief in something that is simply not true.

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The cheerleader (pom pom’s and all) in my brain won’t shut up!!!

“ D… E L…. U S …I O N ….. Delusion, Delusion you live in a Delusion”.

I unfortunately live in a life, of delusion.

I am constantly deluding myself, that I am part of a family where in reality. I am only a guest here.

I delude myself that I am safe, when in reality I am far from safe.
I realize, that the life I live is only want “I” want to see, and this can be taken from me anytime.
Yesterday my rose colored sunglasses were snatched off!!!
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I feel myself going into panic mode right now, trying to make myself feel safe.
I have too much stuff and material things around and cannot escape without a trace. How did this happen to me, I have always lived the life of a minimalist. And now I have so much stuff and material things that are not my own.
I inherited them from my grandmother who was the keeper of the family heirlooms, don’t get me wrong I am honored that it was all entrusted into my hands … BUT… right now I am feeling trapped.
I can’t run!
I don’t have a home of my own for all these keepsakes.
I was fine when I was in my “Delusion” that I was living in my husbands home and part of a family. But reality hit me hard yesterday,

The cheerleader in my brain won’t shut up!!!

“ D… E L…. U S …I O N ….. Delusion, Delusion you live in a Delusion”.

She just won’t shut up!!!!

and I just want to cry

-Issa UGH!