No matter how perfect ones day life is
all the bad things come out in the night.
The
darkness
smells of wet damp
dirty sheets
unstable door
pad-locks
mold
fear
scratching
crumbling walls
dirt floors
I
soiled
myself
accepting this
because I have no choice
Then
it all becomes comforting
because it’s my truth.
-Issa
I woke up on my own
laid in bed stretching.
picked up the house
got dressed to go walking.
Had a beautiful 50 min walk on a trail
full of flowers
growing in fresh soil
running river, sunlight and shade.
Picked up salmon stakes at the store.
While leaving saw a woman in distress, car trouble
I helped.
I parked and helped her push the car to the side of the road so not to cause traffic. I was surprised at people who did not stop to see if she was alright, but they honked their horn because she was in the way.
Stopped at a bar
got a fresh squeezed orange juice.
Got another, just to hit the spot.
Driving home
thinking on how to
prepare the salmon for lunch,
feeling the sunlight on my arm
feeling blessed and ……..
passing it on.
-Issa
I don’t know if it is bad of me to say this about myself but…….
I actually have an extremely hard time with commitment.
After 47 years on this earth I still can’t actually commit to many things fully.
I do try, but somewhere I fall to the wayside and fizzle out or get sidetracked.
I read a daily prompt of someone’s, blog on “Commit” and they wrote.
“The difference between ‘involvement’ and ‘commitment’ is like an eggs and ham breakfast. The chicken was involved – the pig was committed.”
Then they had examples of marriage, children and adopting animals. Well after reading their post I realized I have been just involved so I guess I am a chicken.
They also wrote how “Committed they are to their marriage through the good and bad. Not giving up on their children is important. If they adopt a dog, they should not take it back to the shelter. These are all things I have done.
I must add that, I have committed myself to self-healing and improving my life. This commitment has made me a better woman for my daughter and husband. If I had only been involved, I would not have become who I am today. A woman who is strong and someone many people trust and love.
So I wold just like to write that I have committed to self healing and being involved in life.
And maybe the Ham is not as good, without the Eggs.
-Issa
I spoke to a word press friend the other day who “likes” my posts. When I brought up one of the posts she “liked” she said she did not read it because she was too Knackered.
I personally feel extremely guilty to “like” a post I don’t read.
Do you?
-Issa
Friends who are jealous
of other friends.
Must understand that
we all have our place
in our friends lives,
that on one can replace.
It is not about you
who my friends are,
It’s about me.
-Issa
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