Looking in their window

It looks so beautiful and perfect, that a touch of envy creeps into places of my being that I don’t want there.
Guilt also accompanies it, with saddening thoughts of my own life.

Wow they have the perfect home, adventurous life,
Great couple who are also best friends and no financial problems.
But what I don’t know about them is that
they are perfect strangers, because after half a decade of marriage,
they changed. They both grew in different directions.

He grew left and she grew right.
Perhaps they did not have “all” the important talks,
to make sure they wanted the same things for their future together
or maybe they did and were not honest with themselves
so, definitely not with each other. Many little things began chipping away
at their house years ago and they did not notice,
being the couple who traveled and laughed and always looked
lovingly into each others eyes.

But what were they actually seeing? Did she see unconditional love
and safety for the rest of her life
when she took her vows? Did he see unconditional love
and safety when he took his vows?
The answer is yes they did, but they did not know
what it meant.

So now as I look into the windows of someone else house
I don’t have envy, guilt and I am not sadden of the thoughts of my own life, I just feel relieved.

Written by Issa

You ever find your life, spinning out of control?
You ever find yourself, disappointed in yourself?
When alone, have you ever thought, “This is not what my life ,is supposed to be like”!
You ever thought, “what am I doing ???”

Well, in my years on this earth, all theses questions and more have crossed my mind. I have been in situations in Life that I did not see a way out of… I have been so lost that …dark thoughts creeped in……
But, you never know what ,Life has in store for you.
Remember you only know what you have experienced, so if your are a controlling person like me, it is harder work for you, to Let go and Let Live….

Those who know me personally, know what I have have always said….
“ Life, is the greatest game, you will ever play, you just have to get thru it the best way you can without quitting, to win!”

Being as controlling as I am, I would have never imagined my life as it is now, where I am living and how ….  It goes to show, how Powerful, Prayer and True thought really is…..  I say prayer because, for me prayer is manifestation. This is something I learned, when I was very young and needed protection, I would pray or would have repeated thoughts in my mind.

Over and over again, chanting the same words till it came into existence……

I really can’t tell you who is truly listening to us, but I know it is always a higher conscience of love.  As hard as it may seem at the moment, you must persevere ahead. Like an extreme task, that at the end, the reward you reap, will be unimaginable.
I know it’s hard.  I could never have thought of this life I have now 10 years ago.

It could never have been fathomed.

We all have our place on this earth, I have been fortunate to have found mine for the time being, yes I did say for the time being, cause we never know.
I feel The Mother Earth is our home, as we are a Race of Humans. It is our job to Meet, Travel, See, try to Understand, as many Human Beings as possible, before our transition from this plane we live in.

I Manifested\Prayed\Meditated on the world I see and live right now. This does not mean, I have to stop working on myself because, “I feel”, I have gotten to a Peaceful and Comfortable place in my life. Because as I said before….

The Game\Life….is still in play.

Written by Issa

Do you realize that the only time, in our lives when we like to be old is, when we’ kids. If you’r less than 10 years old, you’r so excited about aging and fractions. How old are you? I’m four and a half! Four and a half going on five! When you get in the teen numbers, you do big leaps like. …Im gonna be 16!” You could be 13, but hey, you’re gonna be 16!.
Then the greatest day in your life arrives….. you become 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony…. YOU BECOME 21! YESSSS!!!!

Then you hit 30. Ooooh, what happened there? Now you sound like milk gone bad. She turned, we have to throw her out. There is no more fun, you’re just a sour-dumpling. What went wrong? What changed? You BECOME 21 but you TURN 30….. then you’re PUSHIN 40. Now REACHING 50 and MAKE it to 60. You’ve built up so much speed that you HIT 70!!!

After that it is a day-by-day thing; until you are just 80, this is 10 years of wonder.

You finally MADE it to 90, you start going backward: I was just 92.

Then something strange happens….

You GET to 100 years old and you become a little kid again. I am 100 and a half!!!
May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!!!

Written by Issa

I completely dislike hearing someone saying that we
don’t change. It’s just ignorant.
But that is me being human, to feel in this way.
We as humans are constantly evolving and learning, as
we get older & grow.
Old life lessons present themselves all the time, but
depending on what we have been through and the time
that has passed, we see the solution with new eyes.
Because we are not the same person of
yesterday.
I am learning a lot about people and myself at
the moment and also being retaught to accept others
for who they are and not for what I want them
to be. Just because they don’t have my vision or are
interested in it, does not make them love
me any less.
When I was younger this would make me so angry
and I would feel betrayed. But now I am much older,
I see the same life lesson with a different
heart & mind.

Written by Issa