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On/Off Switch?

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When a child grows up with, conditional love. 

Unfortunately, (unknown to the child) to have a healthy relationship, they will have to learn unconditional love.

What does this mean for the child, that is now an adult?

It means that they love fast and deeply, because it is an immensely beautiful feeling, of course.

THE CATCH: 

The child never learns how to truly love, but only to mirror it. Thus an invisible on/off switch was developed within them.

As long as someone loves them, the adult/child will mirror love shown to them. 

*The minute someone does not show love anymore towards them.

An invisible switch is turned off (unknown to the adult/child). This makes it easy for the adult/child to walk away. And never look back, thinking that they simply fell out of love.

or 

The love time, has expired.

  • There are many reasons for this to happen. For example: A person must refocus their attention on family members, job, and health. They also need to handle any number of life events that need attention. But the adult/child doesn’t understand.

-Issa

Painting by Neith Nevelson

Music 2 me.

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Without ever asking you have always been here, teaching me how to live life.

When I was young soothing me into a peaceful calm.

But also awaking my excitement, to dancing and singing without a thought in the world. You were my babysitter & friend when no one was around.

When I got older you showed me so many different types of freedom. As an adolescence you taught me about sex, love and relationships. The times when I was broken and desperate. You had the ability to lift my spirits and strengthen my self-worth.

Without ever asking you unselfishly have been my therapist & long time best friend. Who has showed me that fashion and self expression is a whole different level of artistic/life freedom. You are always there to remind me of where I have come from. Also to show me where I can go as well.

I have loved, prayed, laughed, danced, fought, cried, slept and meditated with you. You are amazing and I am glad you exist.

-Issa

Learn thyself

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To feel, true light and positivity as adults. 

We must understand that not everything is easy in life. Our subconscious holds trauma and fear. It also holds our treasures, creativity, and gifts. It is where our greatest capacity to love resides. 

But for some reason we let Trauma & Fear bully to the front of the line.

When we can accept all the past trauma and not feed it, but learn from it. Our trauma can become our strength not our shield. Then fear becomes obsolete.

This is when we start to start feeling free seeing beauty & positivity all around us.

Our creativity & gifts that have always peeked through during our lives come to the front of the line.

Then we can start to walk, the path of light, positivity and love, sharing it with others along the way.

*Seeing our lives past actions in 3rd person is not an easy task to do. Because the hard part is being honest with our view.

*There is no right way or wrong way we must accept our way and be OK with it.

-Issa

Ancestors

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From the depths of the Universe, I hear you loud and clear.

You gave me a taste of a powerful loving light, last year.

Now when I heard it’s call and looked for it , you hid it from me.

Behind a thin veil of delicate clouds, playing peek-a-boo

letting me know that it’s there when I’m ready.

I understand. I need to do more shadow work.

Then it will come out and give me it’s

powerful loving light once again. 

-Issa